hahas. i've planned out my study timetable carefully. hahs. i hope it'll do me some help. x/ lols.


tution-ed today. hahas, just as wat i expected, my tutor went, -.-lll when he saw my paper. lols. he was like, 'O.o, wth, copy down the eqn you oso can copy wrong?', 'are you very hungry when you was doing the paper? you ate yup all your minus signs!' T.T.. HAIS, i have no idea wat was i thinkin when i was doing the paper. hais. but i SWEAR that im not gonna let careless mistakes pull me down 3 grades again. NEVER. =x


HAHS, like wat bestie said, 'im gonna CUT my L1R5 for prelims in to HALF!' x)) no lar, for me, not half exactly. reduce by 1/3 and im satisfied enough. =)) zhuo ren yao zhi zhu. JIAYOU BESTIE! WE CAN DO IT. x)))


i cant wait for the two weeks study break. so that i can go study-ing wif girlfriends. =))


i've finally seen thru you, my dear friend. that's it lar okay. isit dat i'm dumb, or isit dat you've changed? okay, i dun wanna blame it on other ppl, so, just take it as im dumb alrite. it doesnt matter anymore. you are now completely out of my mind. not even a stranger, sorry, i treat it as i've nvr seen you before.so now, i'll bid you goodbye. =)


oh well, lets start counting down, all over again.. 6 more days to go .x(( ewwww.



GOODBYE.

=)))


watched 'John Tucker Must Die' with girlfriends on tuesday... yup. its an entertaining movie.. it was hilarious. xDD pretty girls, hot guys. WHOO. lols.


met up wif Jonathan, Jiaxin, Kancani & Kancana ytd. and yea, we had fun. hahas =)) had dinner, den took neos. everyone changed a lil, someway or another.. hahs. we miss the days. x((


oh well, my prelim results sucks. hard work didnt pay off. WTH lar. hais. i dont see the point of passing eveything but only gettin Bs and Cs on average. this is so, WTF lar. hais. i feel like quitting now. tired of spendin my time but nth comes back in return..


HAIS, tell me, how am i gonna survive? i guess i can barely live over one night. moreover, 3months? wth. time is passin so fast.. i just hope it can just slow down a little.. let me taste a little more of this sweetness before we say goodbye.



i'll keep it as my sweet little secret.

oh well.. maybe just like wat bestie said, no matter how much you cant let go, you'll still have to.. after all, life moves on and on..and somewhere ahead, you'll find your new chapter of life. =)



no choice, but to let it go..

shalalas. i got a B4 for my english! =)) im proud of you, ali. tsk tsk.


uh huhh, i got back my emaths too. not as bad as i've imagined. aa borderline B3.thou i didnt meet my target but, not bad not bad larr. just dat i wasted my tears somehow, -.-ll.. BUT, hahahs. its okie, its fine. lalas. im anticipating my amaths results tml. i hope i wont disappoint myself. x=


hais, somehow i have to agree, a leopard doesnt change its spot.=x changes in human are only short term. dey'll go back to their normal self in no time. x(( ren xing xian er.


i really really really hope this will last.. im happy this way. i love the way it is now. i dont want anythg to affect this. if not, i'll nvr let the person off.


im gonna start mugging REAL SOON. cus even bestie is startin to mug. lols.



you are no longer in my picture. i stand alone. =))

ahhhhh~ im rotting at home. darn.

oh well, i'll have to start mugging tml. so im gonna read up all der mangas tonite. =)) den i shall save the rest for after the O's. hahs.

sometimes im just wondering, why must we always give in to some people, whose attitude somehow, is rotten like hell. i think if you are matured enough, you should know that when people tell you your faults, they didnt mean to insult you, or trying to pickup a quarrel with you.. they are saying it for your own benefits. they just want you to change for the better. this is just a simple logic. i just cant see why some people just cant understand.


i wonder, does these people self-reflects? i mean, they dont realise that their attitude is pure rotten, uttering disgusting? they just like to blame others for some things they did. its like, come on, what the hell is this. you cant expect eberything to go your way, everybody to obey your orders. you are not the queen of to world.. this behaviour only tells people that you are selfish, self-centred. you just live in the world of your own.sometimes i really feel like telling her straight in her face that, 'hey, your attitude sucks.' but i know i wont, cause its not as if that im an angel, my attitude is not good at times, so i got no rights to correct her.


moreover, the time we spend together with our frens are numbered. after the O's we will go seperate ways. what for at this point of time still keep tonnes of secrets from one another, still pissing others off with your that, as-long-as-im-concern-things-must-go-my-way kinda attitude? i really dont understand. we must learn to give and take, but not only take but not give. its terribly selfish. x(


hahs, but i know, even a million times after people tries to correct you, you still wont change. when the day comes when everybody gives up on you, its too late. till that time, lets wait and see, who's gonna lose out, who's gonna be in a more pathetic state. cause if you dont change, you are gonna end up as a loner, not me. im not gonna care from now on.. live the way you think you should. i'll wait and see you fall.

woohoo~ IT'S FINALLY OVER! erm well, prelims i mean.. =x
but its okie! i'll play hard for this few days. next week i'll start to mug mug mug again. =)) lalas.

oh well, i pray, i hope n i wish dat i can pass ALL the papers.. hahs. cus i dun wan my efforts to go down the drain. =x i'll kill myself.(just kiddin.) i haf high hopes on science n amaths, er, at least a B pls? lols. hahs. oh well, lets see next week bahh.

after our last paper today, se7en went seoul garden-in.. lols. hahs. we did haf fun, yea. =)) took neo-prints, shop ard n took pics. hahs. sounds like ths usual routine eh? hahs. =))

oh well, it has been around 2 weeks. yep. ali you can do it dis time round for sure. =) jiayouuu! hahs.(sounds like im deceivin myself x(..oh well, its alrite. not like i've nvr been a fool b4.) I'LL GET OVER YOU FOR SURE.

i mean, i still dont get it. cant ppl just be contented? they have somethings that they think dat is nth, is sth that some ppl might NVR get it their life, n yet they dont appreciate it.y must life be so unfair? since they dont appreciate it at all, why dont god give this blessin to other ppl you wans it, needs it n will treasure it more?. he's ur fren afterall, i just wanna remind you..


you make me go outta my mind.

maybe in your eyes, im nothing.
im not what that i claim i am..
neither am i wat you say dat i am.
i dare to say, i know you very well.
but, you give me no confidence to tell myself, dat you noe me well too.
if i give you der chance, will you dare to say, YES, I KNOW YOU WELL.
i doubt so.. sometimes i just haf so many doubts in our frenship..

okie, few mins more before the day ends,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!!

HAHS.wanted to gif him a BIGGG HUGGG for his bday. but, mission failed.SAD. but i guess he's freakin smilin away.. lols. dat idiot.. i guess his birthday wish is to grow taller den 170cm. hahahahas. the ultimate wish.=)) lols. dun worry shortie-kiddo, you can grow taller de!

oh well, today i totally went SOOOO HIGHHH, dat i dun even noe y.. i said something stupid idiotic things which became a tool for jesse to use to threaten me. OKAY, serve me rite i noe. but im just simply HIGH lar. N jesse was abusin me all along can? kickin and hittin me. my life is sooo miserable. =(( lols. N der best part is, bestie dun wanna help me! hoe pathetic. argh. lols. nvm, tml will be his funeral =) bring a flower wreath along if you wanna visit him. HAHS.

until now, im still high. i reali reali reali duno y. x)))) hahas. mayb i need to take some sleepin pills. wooohhooooooo~! lalalaaaas.

OH FCUK YOU. I BLARDY HELL HATE YOU. ITS JUST A SIMPLE MSG AND ITS NOT AS IF IM MSGIN YOU FOR NTH. OH HELL, I SWEAR THAT THIS IS THE LAST TIME. I WONT CARE ANYMORE, I WONT MSG YOU ANYMORE. I HAD ENOUGH. OH WELL, JUST TREAT IT AS I'VE NVR KNOWN YOU BEFORE, NEITHER DID I LIKE YOU BEFORE.

7 days more to prelims. =)

went back school to study wif girlfrens.. hahs, duno y for some reason, jesse is like super high lar. lols. disturb all of us.. HAIS. hmm, i finally figured out how to do mole calculation lar.. wif jesse's help n my own hardwork! HAHS. oh well, i DUNID YOU HELP! x( BLEAHS!

my cousins came to my hse last nite.. went for dinner together wif my family.. lols. i guess i really have to work hard to get into TP interior design, after hearin wat my cousin said.. it mite be tough, but i have to persevere! =))

hmm, this whole week is PACKED.. wooo, going back school, tutions, meetin up wif frens to study.. i reali got alot to catch up in this week..x(

i hate ppl who ALWAYS cares and act as if they dont.. they always look as if that they are very carefree n as if nth bothers them.. they think that their 'i dont care's can make them look more unbothered. its all BULLSHIT. the unbearable fact is that they care more then anyone elses.. they are just afraid to show it, but i see no point. N der best part is they always make a joke out of it n thinks dat its very hilarious.. never carin bout wat others around them feels or think.. splurtin out some nonsense dat might spoil other ppl's mood.. they THINK that they can just dont care at all, but its just blardy hell stupid. cus deep down, they are only lyin to themselves.. im not pin-pointin at anybody, but i just cant stand it anymore.. does it look cool to be 'carefree' when you have thousand of burdens in your heart? NO, fcukin hell, NO. its silly, dumb , childish N selfish. oh well, watever.